It has been a very long time since I have been in a relationship.

I want to write alot but it’s hard for me to right now. I have so many ideas running through my head and it really sucks because i don’t know what to do anymore. I REALLY have strong feelings for Hannah and i feel like she completes me in a certin way but at the same time it’s like wtf is going on with us?

Then there is Eliza who seems really cool, chill, and my type but i have no clue what’s goin on there and really can’t expect much cause she just became single and shes probably going away for college so it’s like i have no clue what to do.

My life seems almost meaningless at times to me because i feel like i’m im just living because i have to. All I can do it pray to god and wait to see what comes. I’m not the type of person who just wants sex, i need initimacy and a real connection with someone.

-Nick Mahar